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2019 Annual Conference


March 07-10, 2019

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2019 SPE Annual Conference: The Myths of Photography and the American Dream / Major support by The Joy Family Legacy Foundation

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Ashley Feagin

SPE Member since 2008
Member Chapter: Midwest

Method of Mourning

Her death was a month shy of my twenty-first birthday. Self determination kept me from accepting my emotions. I would be forced to critically examine my faith if these feelings were acknowledged and release the ultimate question that was under layers of control, perfectionism, and performance. Why? You see, I was raised to never ask God why. The answer, in my mind, would be the medicine for the pain.nnI did not set out to make this type of work. In fact the subject matter feels too personal for me to photograph or even reveal. I never wanted to make work about my mother or about her death. Something happened when I turned the camera on myself. I was forced to investigate, analyze, and criticize myself as I would any other subject matter. Even with the grandest intentions, the work slowly evolved into what it really needed to say, or what I needed to say. It became my personal method of mourning.n

7 years, 6 months and 12 days



To Give

Being Martha

My Job Was To Cut The Circles

My Body Was Too Heavy To Leave My Bed

No Longer The American Standard

It Crept Up Sudden and Sharp


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