As I gave up my needs in order to benefit others, I became weak. My voice fell faint and my presence, unstable. This vulnerability dictated my decisions and as a result, it has become a barrier that I have yet to fracture.
"Need; lacking:" reveals the mental and emotional tribulations within the context of my past and current familial relationships. These relationships became entangled with giving and taking. The other always assuming possession and me, assuming liability. My perception of appreciation became obscured by manipulation. As a result, I began to conceal myself within a barrier that became confining and fractured. The emotional foundation in which I held myself upon became fragmented and eventually, imperceptible.
The singular figure functions as a representation of a mental space. Physical materials enshroud the body in order to reveal the layers of protection, restriction, and manipulation. Elements, such as nylon and fabric, mimic the skin and become tempered; thread and yarn restrict and consume the body. The figure either melds into its surrounding or struggles to find the strength to release it. Eventually, the body begins to dematerialize and the fragments of these confinements remain. In conjunction with the tangible print or object, I use certain components, such as liquid latex and encaustic wax, in order to create a corporeal connection to the subject matter. My physical interaction with these materials in relation to the body, print, and objects becomes a representation of the distress that comes with this emotional state.
Through physical handling of the print and alterations of the materials upon the body, I am able to disclose these notions of the voiceless and unnoticed.